The immediate answer of Imam Hassan(A)

Today marked the blessed birthday of the grandchild of Prophet Mohammad(S), the heir of Imam Ali(A), the darling of Fatima Zahra(A) – Imam Hassan Mujtaba(A). I would like to take opportunity of this auspicious event and share a personal incident of mine related to the generosity of Imam Hassan(A).

For nearly two months now an unpleasant difficulty occurred in my life which ever since had done my head in. My mental condition decreased when I realized I need to face this difficulty again in a near future. The most powerful weapon I had to battle the upcoming negative thoughts and anxieties as a result of this problem was dhikr but often I found myself having lowered my guard for a moment whereupon my weak Nafs and the whispers of Shaytan triggered the negative thoughts reminding me of the problem.

Last night, which was the night of the birthday of Imam Hassan(A), my condition had worsened and instead of taking advantage of the blessed night with duaa and munajat I went to bed early and irritated. A part of my consciousness was even saying, “It is not fair of you to do this Ehsan, it is Eid, you should be happy” but that complaint was quickly silenced by an ego that had been flourished by a month of negativity. Usually when I wake up the next day I feel renewed with energy and life but not this time. Only regret was there and thus I felt badder then the day before.

I had an option of not facing the problem but evading from a difficulty has never been my way. The brave cross mountains as if they where grains while the cowards fall at the mere sight of the grains taking them for mountains. The way of love goes against the wind, this is what I have been taught, this is how I have been disciplined and no way I would evade from this hard core principle of mine. So I made my decision to cast away all doubts and face the upcoming problem once again.

But later at work I couldn’t bear it no more. I went to pray Dhohr and Asr and my consciousness was burning me from the inside that I’m betraying my lonesome commander on his own birthday with this stubborn behavior of mine. I unleashed my heart and burst out in tears: “Ya Hassan! I know I have abandoned you, please forgive me. This is your day and I’m thinking of my self! But what can I do? I’m weak, I’m low, I have no where else to turn – I ask of you to want from Allah to help me through this difficulty of mine. I can not do it by myself and I have nobody else but you.”

I was uttering words like this for myself while tears silently poured down. I went back to work and in some way occupied my thoughts with work related tasks. When I reached home I went to bed to rest a bit when my dear wife, who knew I was worried about what might happen, came and told me she had received a call the content of which said that my problem had been banished and I would no longer need to confront it!!

SobhanAllah! This is the generosity of Ahl al-Bait(A)! For months I tried to find strength in finding my own solution to the problem without any success. But with a small tawassul to Ahl al-Bait(A) the problem was solved immediately!! Truly we have nothing of ourselves and whatever blessings and fortune that is granted to us comes by the permission of those eminent personalities.