Duaa Abu Hamza Thumali – Reflection 9

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‎”My love is my intercessor to You. [...] I pray to You, O’ my master, with a tongue that has been paralyzed by its sin, O’ my Lord, I confide to You with a heart that has been doomed by its mischief.

(Imam Sajjad(A), Duaa Abu Hamza Thumali)

Oh that I knew what Imam Sajjad(A) is saying here! At first he says “my love is my intercessor”, and I was thinking “what about my love? My love is mere emotions and words, while the abyss of my sins are destroying whatever holy divine love… is inside my heart!” But then you reach the second line shortly afterwards where Imam Sajjad(A) himself says that he makes duaa with a tongue paralyzed by sin and a heart doomed by mischief.

So perhaps this love, even though it isn’t accompanied with the correct action, is so holy and revolutionary that it is accepted by the Generous Lord and forgives your sins through it?

That love is the one that makes you cry at the night, even though it’s not so strong to protect you from sinning, you return to Him, heartbroken, in remorse…perhaps He accepts you anyway? Oh Lord! :’(