It All Seems So Distant

tired, anguished, want to!…but can’t… is sooo! but emptiness prevails… hoping for a near end! ……but the future is absent… crying out, where are you!! ….puzzled, where am i? reaching high, demolishing below…………paradoxal bittersweet madness, a play with words……its all a game, inside my head………….the cosmos and seven galaxies whirling around………….writing of death and tasting it, soooooooo different……the mindset of a martyr with a chained body…….spiritual retreat, esoteric annihilation…..fusions of light……….universe unfolding, angels standing, crowned prophets greeting………..it all seem so distant, silenece….